i put on a happy face. i need someone whos gonna stay.i keep things bottled up inside,i

i put on a happy face. i need someone whos gonna stay.i keep things bottled up inside,i wish ill give someone a try . i feel apart a million times. i need to give someone a try before my heart gives out .i'm losing all my friends .i don't know what happened . but the old me wasn't half as bad. im sorry know one sees what going on inside my head,but the voices tell me i would be better if i was de ad